It Only Took One Night

It only took one night on the Neuro Care floor of HUP to realize that an unruptured brain aneurysm ia not the worst thing, by far, that could happen to a person.
The night was filled with the wails and cries of so many people who have suffered brain damage due to accidents,tumors,injuries,strokes etc. It was exactly what I need to see to bring me one step closer to "Feeling Lucky" vs. Feeling sorry for myself and this interruption in my life.
And then there was my roommate, Emma. Emma is just a few years older than me.......maybe 63 or so. She has had MS for 28 years. She had asked me why I was there and I told her. I also told her that when I started feeling sick last year, I thought that I had MS but instead it is the aneurysm. She said, "you are lucky,it can be fixed." Emma ia using a wheelchair right now because she is having a setback. She was there to try a new treatment that involved a type of chemo therapy. We talked for a hour or so in the middle of the night as no one can really sleep with all the noise. She is grieving the recent lose of her mother and her mobility. We shared some fears and consoled one another. She is a sweet woman and I send out Love and Healing thoughts to her.
I am home now but I am wiped out today. The tests took their toll on my energy and the dye made me feel toxic. I had two bags of Saline with potassium I.V. To flush the dyes from my blood. I still have a headache.
My Neuro Surgeon will call tomorrow to detail his Plan of Action after seeing the test results.
I now have only one thought......Regain my strength and make it to the surgery before this thing ruptures.

My release instructions today were.....No lifting, no driving, no bending over at the waist. Stay calm, keep your Blood Pressure low and relax. I am giving it my all.
Love to All