2010…..The year to simplify my life.
I have always seemed to “Live for Other People”.
I have lived for my parents’ approval.
I have lived for my spouses’ approval.
I have lived for the approval of my employers and the approval of community.
I have lived to the expectations that I have mandated through my living for others.
Who, I ask myself, lives for me?
Really can’t think of anyone…. The fact of my conscientious personality has been a bit of a load to bear and a prison of sorts. For at times my aspirations and dreams, my wants and desires have been set aside to accommodate others. Some of this comes with motherhood, some with conditioning from childhood, some from self-imposed rules and expectations. I blame no one. This is a matter of self-realization, not blame. This is my doing….my choices. And as such, it is also my choice to decide otherwise. I can decide that my life is to be lived for me. I don’t need a reason to live it. It is my gift and it is mine to enjoy. Simple…exact….to the point. If I live it fully ,I can share it fully. It is that simple What a sense of relief.
